breathe in slowly now
i feel as if i’m going insane. my jealousy has gotten the best of me. and i’m getting more and more defensive by the day. blah. kjdsnfks. kind of crazy. i love you. i miss you. i miss the way you smelt that day. and the way your eyes looked. the way your gentle hands grasped mine. i miss the nervousness, that never needed to be there, but yet, still was. but most of all, i miss the way it felt, when our lips finally touched. and the instant feeling that i got from it. it was like, for that moment, nothing else mattered. i was so scared, my stomach hurt, and i felt like i was spinning. but, the moment it happened, everything stopped. for a moment in time, you and i were the only two alive, in my mind. that kiss was so special to me. as well as all the others that followed afterward.
i can’t help but think that i’m never good enough for you. but you always reassure me that i’m completely wrong. so, i’ll take your word for it. sometimes i feel like, one day i’m just going to melt away in your mind. and i’ll become replaced. but, i’m hoping i’m wrong. you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, sweetpea. you’ve given me the strength to become better about my trust, and my own personal issues. you’ve given me hope, and faith. when i needed it the most. and i know that i say these things all the time, but, i really can’t imagine waking up a single day without you being in my life. i never want to. i love you with everything in my heart and soul, my sweet angel.
