its been awhile
i haven’t written anything in awhile. i miss writing about you everyday. blah. i stayed home from school again today, didn’t feel well. the days seem so much longer, and i miss you more and more with each day that passes. i’m starting to lose your image in my head. but it comes back to me. don’t worry. i’m thinking ahead lately. although, remembering my past. i’m trying to think ahead, and be positive. that things will work out for me. for you. for us. because i’m in this, for the better of times, and the worse. and i really do mean that. i’m always going to be there for you, and always love you.
i’m sure i sound obsessive, and creepy sometimes. but, whenever i think about you, and whenever we talk. i just have this feeling, and i can’t overcome it. ever since the first time we kissed. i feel like you’re a part of me now. we’re a part of each other. and that, a part of you will always live on inside of me, as for me in you.
the other day. i thought this would all be over. that it had came to the end. i thought, the absolute worst, really. because i was just so terrified. and i couldn’t help but think negatively about the situation. i cried for over an hour, thinking that i had lost you. but, the truth is. you never really left. i’m sorry for all of that. i really am, sweetpea. i know that things haven’t quite been the same lately. but, my feelings never grow old, nor tired of you. i never want to think about anyone else. just you and i. together.
christian amir lorenzo, you are the only person in this world for me. the only one who understands me, even when i don’t understand myself. the only one who will always stick around, when everyone else leaves. the only one. i love you so so much, sweetpea.
