you know i love you
I wish I could take back every bad thing I’ve ever said to you, or all the hurtful things that have streamed from my mouth. It was never you, it was me. I’m a sullen girl on most days, and I get frustrated with such little things, and begin to forget what is falling from my head, down through my mouth. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I’m never going to deny that. I truly have never loved anyone until you- and I know that now. As I’ve said before, from time and time again, whenever I say that I’m fine, I’m not. Whenever I tell you that I don’t care, that’s usually what I care about most. I won’t try to do these things to you anymore. You never deserved them. My perception was just off, and I couldn’t see as clearly as I should have. I love you so much. I long to hear the heartbeat in your chest, as I rest my head upon you. I’m still in love with the plans we had made, and I hope one day, if you’ll have me, I will move in with you and things will be perfect. You mean everything in the world to me Christian. Please just try and stick through this with me. I know that I’m a bundle of ups and downs, and I’m sure I don’t help your stress level much- but sometimes love does that to you. It literally drives you crazy. I live and breathe everything you are. Sometimes I forget we are two separate people; that other people exist, that the world is spinning, that I have to breathe, that love ever existed before you. Everyday we grow together, we continue to change for the better. We’re in this together, you’ve made my life and made me as I have you. I love you with every cell in my body. Forever, until the stars fall from the sky.
