you gotta let me know
Is what I’m feeling real? I can talk to many other people, or even guys for that matter— but you’re still always the one that is on my mind. I can honestly say that there is never a single day that I go, without thinking of you. I called you today. I hope you come back soon. Its only been a few days, but I miss you so much, honestly. I can’t help but think the worst. I hope you’re okay and having fun. Being safe. I love you so much and I told you I never stopped. I feel silly because people ask me who I’ve been with and what not, and who I’ve been in love with— and all I say is, I met someone named Christian Lorenzo on January first and from that day on, I have loved him. He is the one person that I will always come back to, and care for— which is why I know this is real. Because I never do that for anyone. I never even let people in, or get to know my true colors. I talk about you all the time like you’re still mine, although you’re not— I truly wish that you were. At the end of the day, I can come here and read back on some of the best and worst days of my life; and know that you were there and a part of them. Even with my wost— you always turned everything around, and tried so hard to make me feel so special and important. It breaks my heart sometimes. I still have a stack of letters sitting on my desk at home. I would very much like to send them, and I will, as soon as I get envelopes. I hope they still mean something to you, and if they don’t, atleast you’ll know. You are honestly the greatest gift God has ever given me. I never want to go a day without thinking about you. I never want to forget you, or a moment of our time spent together. I never want to forget that day, I never want to forget that kiss, I never want to forget any of it— ever. This is forever. I love you with all of my heart, please don’t ever forget..
