September 2009
8 posts
I mean it
you know what you are to me don’t make me say it over and over again it’s way too late or much too early you know how I get when I’m left alone to my vices like the grown-ups did when I was a kid I said: I’m a bird in your hand so take me as I am you know what you are to me don’t make me say it over and over again my left hand, a part of me it stays late to...
you know i love you
I wish I could take back every bad thing I’ve ever said to you, or all the hurtful things that have streamed from my mouth. It was never you, it was me. I’m a sullen girl on most days, and I get frustrated with such little things, and begin to forget what is falling from my head, down through my mouth. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I’m never going to...
you make me fall right back where i left off
I finally realized, no matter how many times I say I don’t care. I do. How many times I said I’ve moved on, and I’m fine. I lied. I’m finally realizing that this feeling is never going away inside of me, and I don’t know how to help that. You stole my heart away. Period.
no turning back
“i want to wake up next to you, i want to take care of you, i want to laugh with you, i want to do everything with you. i want to make you feel like the most important girl in the world; because that’s what you are to me. i’m happy whenever i talk to you. whenever i see a picture of you, i get butterflies, even thinking of you makes me happy. i love you.”
found this...
August 2009
4 posts
2:43AM
Webcam sex tonight.
Hahah, no but really. I love you, tonight is just what I needed.
i miss you
I miss your smile, and the way that your eyes lit up when we saw one and other. I miss the touch of your hand, and the feeling in my stomach when we kissed. I miss talking to you on the phone every night before I went to sleep. I miss hearing your voice, and you telling me to have a good sleep, and that you loved me. I miss looking forward to something. I miss you.
Find your way back to...
July 2009
2 posts
life
I finally feel like I have figured out what I want to do with my life. Who I want to be with, and what my plans are. I am trying so hard to rush along with school now. To get three years done in a year and a half. To be seventeen, and graduated. Then move out to Baltimore with you. Spend all my days with you. Hugging and kissing you. Sleeping with you every night. Waking up to your face. ...
June 2009
8 posts
you never let me stray out of your view
I know you won’t admit this I am just a silhouette to you You found comfort with my distance But you never let me stray out of your view Who really needs the past With the allure of something new So we split apart at last Went back to places that I knew Before you And you never have to see The light that wraps itself around me And I never have to know The faces there The places...
tell me baby
Just tell me
Tell me baby why I’m holding on
When your love is long gone
I got a good mind
So, why don’t you tell me why
I can’t say goodbye
Just tell me baby why I’ve been holding on
For so long
And nothin’ but a miracle is going to bring it back
Bring you back to me now
..
I’m still waiting for you baby..
you gotta let me know
Is what I’m feeling real? I can talk to many other people, or even guys for that matter— but you’re still always the one that is on my mind. I can honestly say that there is never a single day that I go, without thinking of you. I called you today. I hope you come back soon. Its only been a few days, but I miss you so much, honestly. I can’t help but think the worst. I hope...
will you
marry me?
May 2009
3 posts
“Give, and it shall be given to you. For whatever measure you deal out to others,...”
– the bible
remember back to the days
When you and I were all each other needed. I wonder everyday if I made the right choice. Or even, if this is how things are supposed to be. Sometimes, I lay awake at night, still thinking of that day, wondering if I’ll ever get the chance to see you again; and if I don’t — I wanted to tell you that, that day, was one of the best days I’ve ever had. Throughout my sixteen...
April 2009
9 posts
“cause he’s everything i ask for, everything i ask for, and just a little...”
– the maine
hopeless case
its been about a month now. we haven’t spoken in over a week. things are getting harder, but some things are getting better. i still find myself thinking about you, still wanting you, and still missing you. i wish you felt the same. you were everything to me. maybe if i wait around for you long enough, you’ll come back to me one day.
“cause you’re everything i ask for,...
“Another morning with my eyes towards the Hudson
Wishing the current would carry...”
– reverie - the morning of
breathe in slowly now
i feel as if i’m going insane. my jealousy has gotten the best of me. and i’m getting more and more defensive by the day. blah. kjdsnfks. kind of crazy. i love you. i miss you. i miss the way you smelt that day. and the way your eyes looked. the way your gentle hands grasped mine. i miss the nervousness, that never needed to be there, but yet, still was. but most of all, i miss the way...
“I will soothe your pain, I will ease your strain, You’ll be waiting in vain, I...”
its been awhile
i haven’t written anything in awhile. i miss writing about you everyday. blah. i stayed home from school again today, didn’t feel well. the days seem so much longer, and i miss you more and more with each day that passes. i’m starting to lose your image in my head. but it comes back to me. don’t worry. i’m thinking ahead lately. although, remembering my past....
March 2009
33 posts
“I wish I could fly away, where the sand and the water, brush my little toes....”
– shelbyolivia
nothing ever goes according to plan
Pt 1.
today i realized, that i’m not the only one. and this has been a lie. i’m upest, i’m frustrated. and i feel sick. i don’t know what to do, nor what to say. you hurt me so much. and i can’t think straight. this has been the hardest thing for me, and now i feel like i’ve wasted four months on someone who has been going behind my back the whole time. was...
“Not only is there but one way of doing things rightly, but there is only one way...”
– John Ruskin
the days turn into years
i never got the chance to write what happened that day. but now, i’ll take the time.
it was one of the most glorious and memorable days. you and i were finally united and brought together. and i couldn’t have asked for a better first meeting. you were so small and cute. i was so nervous and scared. all i wanted to do was hold you and kiss you, and tell you how much i care for you....
“Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back.”
here i am
i’m finally in chicago, how crazy is this. i’m finally in the same place as you, and you’re no where to be found. this is terrible. we made plans for this week though, yayay :)
i get so nervous just thinking about you, and when we finally do meet. i’m terrified of the outcome, and that you won’t think of me the same, or that you just won’t like me. its...
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not...”
– I Corinthians 13:4-8
4:22AM
i’m finally home from camp. as much fun as i had, i was becoming homesick and beginning to miss the constant feeling of you being there with and for me. i have to tell you, this camp has changed my life. it is truly something i will remember for the rest of my life. for the rest of my days spent on this earth. becasue before last night, i had never felt like god had truly touched me or my...
“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality...”
– Dr. Seuss
the best of you and me
this is so genuine. you and i. we’ve made it through thick and thin. and i don’t think we’ve ever been so close. i’ve already decided. we are getting married. you said so yourself. so. its happening. i can’t believe, that in less than a week. i will finally have my arms around you, and finally be able to kiss your lips, and hold your gentle hands. atleast, i’m...
